July 1st Tuesday.
A year today since my sons funeral. I feel deflated, im sad and im just so fed up of life. I say it all the time, but my boys are the reason i get out of bed everyday. I'm so tired, I don't mean sleepy tired, I mean mentally. I'm drained all the time. I'm so lucky to have the friends I have now im sober. They're always there for me and im so thankful. I was walking Asda this morning and saw my Jensen drive past on his way home from the gym, and when I came out of Asda I heard someone shout 'mum', it was Jensen. He turned around and came to Asda to pick me up. Its the little things like that, that keep me going. How sweet of him to come and pick me up. I'm blessed to be their mother. Ive raised such loving, polite, well mannered boys and they make me so proud. I just wish Jay-Dee was still here. Losing my son has left a hole inside of me, I feel empty inside. God im so depressed. Ive been dieting since last Wednesday and im 4lb down. Dieting is depress...