February 9th Monday.

Well, i went on my date. I went Asda first and brought a bunch of pink roses and a valentines teddy bear. I wanted to treat her. Start as I mean to go on. She had the biggest smile when I gave them to her. I was so nervous waiting outside Cafe Nero, but when I saw her walking towards me I had the biggest smile on my face. We chatted and before I left I gave her a kiss. Honestly feel like im on cloud 9 at the moment. Not felt happiness like this for years and years. I deserve this dont I. Got a smile on my face as I write this blog. Thank you Jesus for sending me someone to love. Im just so happy today. On my way home i got chatting to the Uber driver and he asked if I had any children and I said ive got 4 boys. He asked how old they were because he said i only look young, bless him. I said im 42, he said i only look in my 30s, but anyway, i didn't have the heart to tell him one of my sons passed away, so I just spoke like Jay-Dee was still alive. Anyway, Natalie has lost her sister 6 years ago this year, like my dad will be 6 years this year. She said she knows how I feel about losing my dad and son because she sees how her mum hurts over losing her daughter. Its really nice that she understands. Ive had a really nice date. Today's blog is a happy blog guys!!! Yay, its been a long time coming. Pray for me that this continues because I can't take anymore heartache. Happy Monday guys. I went Asda after my date and brought everything to make a curry for tea, can't wait. Love a good curry. That's it for today, thanks for following me on this journey. Oh by the way, 1 whole week off the weed. Go me!