October 7th Tuesday.

Just had my 3rd session of trauma therapy. How's it going? I dunno, I sort of disassociate through out. Ive learned some grounding techniques, so that's good. They said to name your trauma so you can recognise it. My dad's death, my cancer and my sons suicide? That's 3 lots of trauma in the space of 4 years. Maybe it would be easier if there was only 1 traumatic experience to deal with, but I have 3. Its shit. I'll keep going because something has got to help, even if its only a little bit. We can't talk about our traumatic experience because its group therapy, so we can't over share which is a shame really because it would be nice to know if people are going through what im going through. Alls therapy has done is dragged everything to the surface. Anyway, i went Asda after, got some goodies for the kids and stuff for tea and now im back home. Going do some washing and that's it for the day. Jasper will be here after college then Jesse will be home. I love my children so much. Wouldn't be here now if it wasn't for them.