August 4th Monday.

So the girl i was talking to, I've blocked. She was sending me voice notes and she sounded slow. She also wanted to come and meet me after speaking a few times. Anyway, she wasn't for me and if im honest, I can't be bothered to meet anyone. I'm happy just me and my boys. Can't be bothered with the small talk. She was asking me what my favourite colour was.. fuck off. No thank you. Can not be bothered at all. My heads not mentally ready to be chatting to someone. I told her I go church, the next breathe she was saying she'll come with me.  Nope, she was too forward for my liking. So yeh I blocked her. 

Ive had a pj day today. Nothing planned and nowhere to go, so I've stayed in my pjs. I'm just watching a drama in itvx and that's it. It was raining this morning but now the sun is out, so I've pegged some washing out and hope it dries. Jasper's not long gone home, he slept last night. Ive got my 18th driving lesson in the morning so Jesse and I have got to get up early tomorrow. Not been getting out of bed till 11am except for yesterday when I was up early for church.  I feel ok today, I've thought about my dad and son like I always do, but im doing ok. I'll think of them everyday for the rest of my life until I get to see them again. I want to do something with Jesse tomorrow after my driving lesson. We'll both be up and dressed so it would be good to do something with him, but god knows what. Might see if there's anything on at the cinemas. I dunno, I'll let you know tomorrow what we do.

My back is still aching, if it doesnt get better I'll have to see the doctor. Don't know what I've done to it but its doing my head in now. Think we're getting pizza for tea tonight, diets going well as you can tell haha. Anyway, that's it for today. Enjoy the rest of your Monday.