January 13th Tuesday.

Been to meet my sister this morning in Hanley. I had £50 Primark gift card off Damian for my birthday and i thought to myself ill buy new pjs and underwear. Im definitely getting old. You know what, ive not felt too bad the past few days. Trying to have a positive outlook on life. Trying to be more grateful for what I have. Trying to grieve and live at the same time. God its hard work. Im trying and thats the main thing. Dead nervous about Thursday, date day.. keeping thinking of not going. Am I rushing myself? Will I regret it of i dont go? Im just nervous i think. Ill see how i feel come Thursday. Ive gotten to comfortable being alone. Which isn't a bad thing, but some times I get lonely and would like the company. I guess i could just go on the date and if I dont like her, ill just he honest with her. Shit man! Dating is hard. I dunno ill just see if I end up going. Jasper's just been to the Orthodontist, he's getting braces fitted the end of this month. Jensen has gone private and gets his braces fitted this Friday. They're going have prefect teeth. Can't wait get into new pjs and climb into bed haha. I'd sleep my life away if I could. Im currently sat on my settee with my dog and kitten fast asleep on my knee. Love them both so much, they're so spoilt. My pug is called Sicily and my kitten is called Sol. We call Sicily, Puggy though, and Sicily when shes weed in the kitchen haha. Never thought I'd end up with 2 pets. No more though because these 2 keep me on my toes! Pasta bake for tea and thats me.