January 10th Saturday. 42 Today.

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Anyway, the messaging that girl I was on about? Well its back on. Im going the cinema on Thursday to meet her. I am shitting myself. Ive been alone for so long, I forgotten how to live. But anyway ill keep you updated on how that goes. So, im 42 today. I got dressed this morning, opened my cards. Opened my birthday cake last night because Jesse and myself was hungry haha.. so anyway, me and Jesse went Asda to buy everything to make tacos for tea. Jesse idea. To be fair i could of gotten a take away for less than tacos cost me to make, but due know what? Jensen was in the kitchen helping me. Jesse helped too. It was lovely. Went to see a few of my friends earlier. Its not been a bad day. Its another day closer to my death day. You didn't think I'd write a blog without getting morbid did you haha. Seriously though, its a day closer for real. Im sat in my pjs, eating cake. The fire is on, its all cosy. Jesses on the vr, Jasper's across from me and Jensen is in his room. All thats missing is Jay-Dee, but im sure he's been with me today and my dad. Miss them both so much. Going my mums in the morning to get my hair done. My roots are so bad. Ive got force myself to go. You know what im like with my hair, I hate it. Going have to go. Can't go on a date with roots as bad as mine. Ive let myself go. Maybe getting my hair done will make me feel a bit better. Im not feeling too bad today. Anyway, im going bed now. Happy birthday to me.

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