April 20th Easter Sunday.

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I didn't it!! I was Baptised this morning. What an amazing morning it's been at Church. I was so nervous all last night and this morning, and then I walked into church and it was fine. Not going lie, when they pulled me back out of the water, I couldn't breathe, I felt like I was drowning for a few seconds, but then I was fine. The water was freezing cold too. I feel so proud of myself. I feel closer to God and I'm now officially apart of my church family. What an amazing feeling. I feel on top of the world. 
My brother, Jasper and Jesse came to watch and 2 of my close friends came, Rachael and Ange. My friend Tom helped to Baptise me and I had a few of my friends from school there too. Its been an amazing morning and I feel truly blessed. 
Today is a good day.

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