June 7th Sunday.

My friend didn't end up coming mine, instead a few of us met at hers for a cuppa tea, well 2 cups of tea and a catch up. I was so depressed this morning, really wasn't feeling life, but i feel better now ive been see a few of my friends. Before I went out another friend of mine knocked on the door with a bunch of sunflowers she'd brought me to cheer me up. I really do have the best of friends. Im so grateful. 

We were talking about something and Jay-Dee came into the conversation, I felt like I couldnt talk properly with a lump in my throat. Had to hold back the tears and one of my friends asked if I was ok. Of course I said yes, but deep down I wasn't ok. Found it hard to talk about him, I said I still wait for him to walk through the door. I can't comprehend the fact that hes gone forever. 

I say it all the time, but I miss my dad and son so much. Its killing me.

Anyway, here's a pic of my sunflowers to brighten up your day.