May 31st Sunday.

Didn't feel like going out today, even said I didn't feel upto going out to my friends, but one of them said she needed her girls today. So I got dressed and went out with them. I didn't want to go because I really couldnt afford, one of my friends said it was her treat. We went The Man In Space and ive had a really lovely day. Had a mixed grill and a desert, we nipped Home Bargains for some bits and then back to one of my friends house for a cuppa. Its been a really lovely day.

We're going Leek tomorrow to have a browse around and go for a cup of tea and cake somewhere. 

I really do have the best friends I could wish for.

They know its coming upto Jay-Dees anniversary of his death and they're so supportive. Im feeling thankful today.

Ive had a right off stomach today though, all bloated and hard. Full of wind.

Anyway, im back home and in my pjs. Im watching something called Nemesis on Netflix, its really good.

Back to the school run in the morning, already not looking forward to my alarm again.

Looking forward to going out tomorrow, it does me the world of good getting out of the house.

Im dreading Tuesday. 2 whole years without my child. 

Even on days where my mind is occupied, I still think about my dad and son. I miss them both so much. I keep seeing videos on tiktok of Theresa the Long Island Medium. Im obsessed with her, i use to watch her years ago on tv. I'd absolutely give anything to have a Medium tell me my dad and son are ok. Being a Christian its not really something you do, but I just need to know they're both ok. There's a Medium close to where my sister lives so im going ring up and enquire about having a reading done. I know I believe in Jesus and they're both safe with him, but I just need closure. I need to know they're ok where they are. You might not believe in stuff like that, but I do. I speak out loud to my dad and son most days and I just know in my heart they hear me, when I tell them I miss them. So when ive got some spare money I want to see a Medium..