March 24th Tuesday.

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Spent the morning with my sister, we met up Hanley and went for a hot chocolate. It was nice. Damian asked me what I wanted for Mother's Day and I said photo frames. So he ordered me 10 vintage, different shapes and sizes photo frames that came a few days ago, anyway, the photos I ordered arrived today, so ive spent the afternoon putting my photos into the frames and putting them up on the wall behind my tv. Love having photos all around me of my boys. Its not been a bad day. Mentally im doing ok, made me sad putting photos up of Jay-Dee and my dad, but I find comfort seeing their faces around me. My house is filled with photos and canvases and I love it. I love seeing memories all around me, it keeps me going. Ive watched Married At First Sight UK and Australia for years and today a lady called Mel that is an expert on the show has died age 54. Its really upset me. I know what her family are going through and its horrible. Feel so sad for her family. You never know when your time is up do you? You never know when you'll live your last day on earth. Anyway, ive had my friends ask me this morning at the cafe if im ok because I haven't been going much. I said my mental health is shit. I went this morning, but didn't stay as I was meeting my sister. Ill go tomorrow and spend some time with them. Thinking of ordering a big pizza for tea, as ive not been food shopping. Ill go Asda after school in the morning and do a shop. Another day nearly done, thank god. Anyway, thats it for today. Appreciate all you have because you never know when you'll live your last day. Im trying to be thankful for the life ive been given to live, its just hard when you have people you love in heaven. I am trying my best in life and thats all I can do.

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