March 11th Wednesday.

Feel a bit better today. Been the cafe see my friends and actually laughed and engaged in conversation. Yay! Going see a few of my friends tonight for a catch up. Thank god for days like today. Don't get me wrong, im still depressed and really can't be bothered to go see my friends later, but I have to push myself to do things on my "better days". Im just doing a wash, ive been Asda for things for tea and stuff to make a steak and potato pie tomorrow. Tonight we're having pasta, tuna and mayo. Was meant be having sweetcorn, but I forgot that. Thought I had some in, but oh well. Jesses not had a day off this week upto now, so im doing good. Told myself he was doing a full week. His attendance is poor so im really trying. Absolutely hate getting up in the morning. 2 more weeks at school, then hes off for 2 weeks for the Easter holidays. Can't wait! I just love being asleep. My escape from the world. I thank god that im feeling better today. These are the days that get me through the bad days. Gives me hope. I know im still depressed and grieving, but its not as heavy today. Ive had Natalie sending me lengthy messages telling me she loves me and she'll wait for me.. can't be bothered with it. Im happier on my own with my boys. Relationships are hard work, but im harder to deal with. Ive got alot going on, so the last thing I want to add to it is a relationship. It shouldn't be hard work being with someone im sure? Anyway, thats me for the day. Happy Wednesday.