February 19th Thursday.

Not done anything today, been in my pjs all day and had a lazy day. Jesse didn't get back from Alton Towers until tea time, so ive enjoyed the peace and quiet. Dont feel too bad today. Cooked a chicken, so we had stuffing and chicken sandwiches for tea. Its nearly bedtime thank god. Can't wait go sleep. Done nothing but yawn all day today. My brother is coming tomorrow after work for a few hours, so that'll break my day up. Im going Natalie's Monday day time for a meal shes cooking me. Heads still fucked up, but im just going to go with the flow. Don't know what I want out of life. Living is hard work and it shouldn't be. Life shouldn't be this hard. My roots need doing, my hairs a mess, which then makes me feel a mess. Jasper stayed over last night so ive had his company all day. Hes still here now, but hes going soon and then im getting into bed. Love having my boys around me. I dont want them grow up. Love my boys more than anything in the world. They keep me going and Jesse keeps me on my toes, thats for sure. Don't know where my heads at when it comes to Natalie, some times I want to be with her, and then other times I just want to be on my own. My heads fucked, im aware of that.. we'll see what happens before Monday. She might piss me off before then and ill cancel haha. Anyway, Jasper's Uber is on its way and then im going bed. So goodnight.