January 11th Sunday.

Jesse, Jensen and Jasper have spent the day in Manchester with Damian. They've been shopping, playing bowling and then watch Man United play. Ive had the day to myself. Went my mums get my roots done because honestly, I'd let myself go. Came home, showered! And then I went to see my friends. Its 10 past 6 at night, ive just ordered myself a take away because the boys won't be back till 8ish. Absolutely loved having some me time. Really needed today, its give me a bit of a boost. Damian doesnt realise how much he helps my mental health when he has Jesse on a Sunday. Hes just the best! I was telling my mum earlier that I was worried I'd get dementia with how bad my memory is, and I said if I get it, just kill me because ive seen what dementia does. So anyway, she said she was thinking of when she gets old and I said, you're going in a home haha, she said no I bloody aren't, I said yes you are hahaha. She really is going in a home. Anyway, I was showing my mum my Stanley cup I had off Jensen with Jay-Dees photo engraved into it and she said how lovely it is. You know what? Im feeling ok. Talked about Jay-Dee like he's still here. My mate was saying how her relative had lost her son aged 21 like my Jay-Dee. I didn't cry, I just spoke about him like he'd never gone away. I like to talk about my son, it keeps his memory alive. Im glad my hair is done ready for Thursday. Couldn't of gone on a date with hair as bad as mine was. Got to make a bit of effort I guess..

Anyway here's me with wet hair.