October 25th Saturday.

I was up this morning ready for an early start at church. 9am - 3.30pm it was and I stayed the whole day. Its been brilliant, I read my testimony out to over 50 people. Can you believe that, for someone that's riddled with anxiety, I stood on that stage with a microphone and I read my testimony out. There were 53 people there and not sure how, but I got the strength from somewhere to get on that stage and read. Thank you Jesus. I prayed for strength and strength was what I got. The worship songs were amazing. They laid on a little spread for lunch and home made soup. It was lovely. Ive really had the best day and I feel so uplifted, I feel really good for a change. I know my dad and son would of been with  me today and they would of heard my testimony. I hope they're proud of me. Jensen just came home from work and the first thing he's said was 'did you read your testimony?'. I just know my kids are proud of me. I'm living for them. Ive not got much recollection of the last 5 years, its been tragedy after tragedy, but through all that darkness, I got sober and I found my faith. I'm a completely different person than I was 5 years ago. Ive come so far from where I was. Ive still got a long way to go but im heading in the right direction. Writing this blog most days does me the world of good, getting everything out of my head and into a blog. When I had bereavement counselling they mentioned about writing a journal and I remember telling them I blog. I've been blogging since April 21st 2021. That's crazy, its been more like a diary for me but for the public to see. You're on this journey with me, when I find myself you'll be the first to know.