September 8th Monday.

Did not want to get up this morning, but I did. Yay. Anyway, that 10 minutes it takes Jesse to arrive home after school is horrible. You start to think all sorts. What if he doeant arrive home? What if he's kidnapped? Oh god my mind went on overdrive. Hes my last baby so im bound to worry. Hes growing up too fast. He said can I go on my own in the morning, i said no, not yet. This morning he rode to school on his own, but i walked and saw him there when I arrived. I like going the cafe see my friends. Through the day ive had a shower and washed my hair. I really want to go short with  my hair, but I want to lose weight first. I'm 8lb down now, its slowly coming off. Jabbed Saturday morning and haven't been ill off it this time so im happy. Don't know about you, but ive put the heating on, I think its gone cold. Ive not been too bad today, mentally speaking. Ive sat and thought about my dad and my son but I managed to snap myself out of it. Not a day goes by where I dont think about them both. Its just some days are heavier than other days. Bacon and cheese oatcakes for tea and that's it for today.