August 19th Tuesday.

Slept loads better last night, can't believe how unwell I felt yesterday morning. Day 3 on Mounjaro, I've been eating but not as much as I was eating before, so we'll see how it goes. I got up this morning and forced myself to get dressed. Jesse and I walked to Heron to stock up on frozen food. My freezer is full again, and then we walked puggy. The boys have all gone bowling now with Damian, so I've gotten into my pjs. Jensen goes to Colombia in 2 days, im going to miss him but he's living his best life. Hes planning a trip to NYC which will be amazing for him. I went to New York twice when I was younger. Its the best place I've ever been too. Time Square is amazing. I think its quite cold today, do you? How am I feeling today? I'm ok, im still here, still fighting and still showing up. Ive got kids that need me, giving up isn't an option anymore. I was thinking to myself, when will I meet someone to love? Ive been single a while now, but then I was also thinking about how peaceful my life became since I stopped drinking, and it makes me want to stay single. I'm already nervous about meeting someone new. I dunno, some times I miss being with someone and some times I enjoy my own company. Life's fucking hard work i tell you. Oh yeh, im going out Saturday with 3 of my friends. We're going The Man In Space for a meal. Ive got nothing to wear. I live in trousers and tshirts. Also I've been thinking of going short with my hair, you know, proper lesbian looking haha. No, but seriously, I hate my hair with a passion. Its falling out because of the Menopause and if you're new to my blog, I had cancer and was forced into the Menopause. So yeh its falling out and I just hate it. I'm thinking of losing weight first though, because a short hair cut on a fat face won't work. Need to lose some weight, hoping this Mounjaro works. We'll see what i weigh Saturday evening. Fingers crossed for a loss.