May 18th Sunday.

My mum came to visit me yesterday, i don't see her often so it was nice, even if she did only stay for an hour..

I've been to church this morning and stayed for a cuppa tea and some biscuits, then I've been my friends house, for yep you guessed it, more cups of tea.

She's feeling low at minute same as me.

We were talking about all the jobs around the house that need doing but not having the money to do them. It's depressing, she works full time and still struggles. I wish I had a job but I know I'm not mentally well enough. I will be soon I hope. I'd love to be in work, it would help to take my mind off everything.

Anyway, I had a lovely morning in church, there was a baptism today for a baby. He didn't get submerged into a bath like I did, they just wet his little head. He had a lovely christening gown on. It was a lovely morning.

Jesse went out with Damian before I went to Church and still isn't home. He has the best days out with Damian. 

I've come in from Rachaels and got straight into my pj's. I'm currently on season 1 of Dexter. Its good.

I'm going cook some sausages and make sausage and cheese baguettes for tea I think. I'm not that hungry because I've been eating chocolate. I'm fucking murder for chocolate. Me and Rach were saying how we need to just accept the weight we are and someone will love us regardless of our shape. She's right. 

I'm sick of trying every week to lose weight, I'm sick of feeling fat but then I ram chocolate down my throat. I give up.

I'm meant be going my mums tomorrow, but i already can't be bothered. I think it's because I'm tired, I'll be ok tomorrow when I'm up early for the school run. Not seen my sister for a few months and she's asked if I want meet her Tuesday to go shopping so that'll be nice.

Anyway, I'd better go start tea. Enjoy what's left of your Sunday.