April 23rd Wednesday.

I feel better today, better than i did yesterday. I've been out with my boys for food and Jesse went in the wacky warehouse. His friends from school were there too so he's loved it. I love doing things with my boys. On the way home we drove past a car and I glanced at the driver and I saw Jay-Dees face. It was weird. I remember after my Dad died, I kept seeing his face on other people's bodies. I know that was Jay-Dee showing me he's still around me. Have you ever done that? Glanced at someone and saw a face you know? Weird. Every time I go out with the boys I find myself thinking about Jay-Dee even more than usual. I think it's because he's meant to be with us and I miss him so much. I know he's in heaven with my dad, I can't wait to see them both again. You watch me not die until I'm old, that would be just my luck!

I'm meeting my friend Tom tomorrow at a cafe with Jesse and his daughter Penny. I'm looking forward to it.

I've done quite alot over the Easter holidays, I'm proud of myself. I've tried my best to get out of the house with Jesse more and I've done so well. I'm feeling proud.

I've just had a bath and got into some fresh pj's. Early night tonight I think, I'm so full after going out for food. I'm ready get in bed. I had a mixed grill and then sticky toffee pudding with custard. I am so full it's unreal. Diets going well as you can tell haha.

I finished watching Power, it was brilliant, but now I've got nothing to watch. I'm just doing a load of washing and that's it for today. Hope you've had a lovely Wednesday.