August 21st Thursday.

Woke up early, got dressed and took Jasper to his enrolment into college. He dropped out last year because Jay-Dee died, so he's trying again this year. Its got to be just as hard for the boys as it is for me, losing Jay-Dee. They must secretly grieve the way I do. I have this blog to talk to, they keep it to themselves. I feel for them. I know what they're going through. Jensen left for Colombia this morning for 11 nights I think he said. Hope he has the best time, I miss him already. Hes living his best life and I couldn't be prouder. I'm so proud of my boys, like I say, they're my reason to live.  Weighed myself earlier and I've not lost any weight so Mounjaro clearly isn't working for me. Maybe i need a stronger dose, I dunno. I feel ok today, I've been see a couple of my friends earlier and its done me good. Today i feel better than i did yesterday. Such a long blog yesterday's was. Because I haven't lost any weight we got a take out for tea haha couldn't make it up honestly. I'm sad, but im sad everyday, today I did better at hiding it.