April 17th Thursday.

Went Asda this morning and brought my mum a bunch of flowers. She was so happy and it warmed my heart to see her smile. She's done my roots, I have bleach then a toner. I came home with my toner on and just rinsed it off. My hair looks so much better now my roots have gone.

On my way home in a taxi and my mind started to drift off. I was thinking about my dad and my son, still can't believe they're not here with me. It hurts my heart. I struggle some days with the fact that they're gone. It's like i don't want to believe it. Its hard to comprehend.

Life's cruel isn't it?

Was lovely spend a few hours with my mum even if it was to get my hair done.

Said to my mum, I'm tempted shave it all off. I've got a love hate relationship with my hair. I love it when it's all done and looks nice, but I hate doing it.

Jesse's decided he wants a subway for tea so that's what we're having. I'll just have a salad though because I'm dieting. I've literally got no appetite on this Mounjaro jab, I'm eating one meal a day which is really good for me. I was eating loads, hence the weight gain. I know it's because of my medication. I was told I'd gain weight, just didn't realise how much. It was time I did something about it and I've tried everything. Mounjaro was my final resort and thank god it's working. Plus I've had zero side effects so that's good.

I'm going watch some more of Power and make a cup of tea. Enjoy your Thursday.