March 26th Wednesday.

Had my 8th driving lesson yesterday and I can finally see progress. My clutch control is getting alot better. I'm becoming more confident behind the wheel. 

My friend came to visit me last night, we had a good catch up and a few cups of tea.

I never feel like seeing anyone, but then I'm happy when I do.

I struggle with socialising because I don't really talk alot anymore. My friends do the majority of the talking and I put a fake smile on my face and join in with conversation as much as I can.

I don't know why I don't talk much anymore, well I do, it's because the only thing I want to talk about is my son, so it's easier to just stay quiet. 

I've not felt too bad the past couple of days, mentally speaking. It does me good seeing my friends. I see a group of friends every morning in the cafe. Like I say, I don't talk much, but I'm trying. I'm trying to socialise more because I know it does me good. I'm just tired all the time, probably why I don't talk much. I'm just mentally drained from grieving..

I'm going visit my mum tomorrow and take her a card and some flowers ready for Mother's Day. It'll do me good to spend the day with her. She's not good mentally either, she's become isolated and I can relate to how she's feeling.

I'm trying my best to live this life I've been given, it's just that some days are so bloody hard.

Just got to keep doing what I'm doing and try to stay afloat.