March 23rd Sunday.

Well you can tell I've got EUPD because today I feel so much better.

I've been to church this morning and let me tell you, what a difference it makes to my mental health. It works wonders. I absolutely love going to church. It's my favourite thing to do on a Sunday morning.

I've just ordered 2 shirts for my baptism. 1 for when I get in the water and 1 to wear after. I'll post pics when they arrive.

My friend has been for a couple of hours, so we've had a good chat and now I've just got into my pj's.

Today has been a better day.

If my mind is occupied I'm ok, it's when I'm sat on my own my mind goes on overdrive. I guess that's like anyone else really. I do have to remind myself that I'm not alone with the way I feel and I'm sure there's others grieving like I am.

I hate how bipolar my mental health is.

One minute I can be fine and the next I want to kill myself. It's hard work, but one thing I do now is I tell myself that tomorrow will be better. It's just hard on them days you don't want to live anymore.

I'm getting through each day and that's the main thing.

I've decided I'm going have a curry for tea and then try diet again tomorrow. Who doesn't start a diet every Monday? 

I'm still contemplating joining a dating website, I don't know what's stopping me, well I do, my mental health!

Who's going want be with me how my mental health is? No one. So I need to work on me first then date when I'm better.

Anyway, hope you're all having a lovely Sunday who ever you are that reads my blog. 

Today is a better day. Amen.