April 19th Sunday.

So last night Jasper and Jesse-John went with Damian for a sleepover at 5:30pm, Jensen went Manchester for a friends birthday, so for the first time in forever I was home alone. Felt a bit lost, but enjoyed some me time. So I thought to myself, fuck the diet and I ordered myself a chicken tikka jelafraze with a garlic nan. I sat on my own and enjoyed it. Felt like a right fatty after, didn't eat it all, think my stomach has shrunk with dieting and fasting. Weighed myself this morning and ive only lost 2lb upto now this week. Bit shit really, but ill carry on doing what im doing. I slept in till half 9 this morning, woke up dead refreshed because I think I went sleep about half 9 last night haha. Anyway, ive been see my friend Rachael today and then nipped Home Bargains with Jensen. Went Asda get the stuff to make chilli for tea which Jensen asked for. Ive cooked tea and washed up. Plated everyone's food up and im done. Sat waiting for Jesse and Jasper to come and thats it. You know what, ive not felt as low as I have been the past few days. Getting out of the house really helps. Like always ive had moments of feeling sad, but ive not stayed there. We all know these better days dont last though, unfortunately. Anyway, thats my day.