February 25th Tuesday.

So I've just had my 4th driving lesson. I stalled it a few times, I'm not taking my foot off the clutch slow enough! God I hope it starts to come naturally. I just keep thinking everyone who's new to driving probably stalled alot to in the beginning. Well that's what I'm telling myself anyway.

I started calorie counting yesterday and managed stay under 1400 calories. I tried weighing myself before I started and the batteries had gone in my scales, but I roughly know what I am because I've weighed myself a few weeks ago. I've got alot of weight to lose so we'll see if I can stick to the calorie counting. 

I went Asda this  morning and brought some healthy ready meals for my tea. As long as I stick under 1400 calories I should be able to lose a few lbs each week. Like I say though, it's only day 2 but upto now I'm doing good.

I've got a calorie counting app on my phone so I just have to scan everything I eat. Pretty simple really.

I've got 2 of my friends coming this evening for a catch up and cups of tea so that'll be good.

I finished watching Yellow Stone and it was brilliant. Definitely worth a watch if you haven't seen it.

I'm currently watching something called The Capture on Netflix and upto now it's really good. There's 2 seasons.

I'm not doing too bad mentally speaking,  it's the evenings that are the hardest or the school holidays when I'm stuck in on my own. I think about my son and dad every single day and I know it will be this way for the rest of my life. I ask Jay-Dee 'why?' all the time. I say it out loud in the hopes I get a reply. When I'm talking out loud to my son, I often think to myself, have I lost my mind? I can't be the only person that talks to dead people surely.

But anyway, today I'm doing ok.