February 12th Wednesday.

Had my 3rd driving lesson yesterday and he threw me in at the deep end and had me driving to Leek and back. I shocked myself at how well I did. I still stalled it a couple of times but I'm getting there.

2 of my friends came last night for a catch up and cups of tea. Yesterday wasn't a bad day because I was occupied. It's when I'm sat on my own I get sad.

I've been for a valentines afternoon tea today with Jesse at school, and tomorrow I'm booked on an afternoon craft session which is for valentines day.

Jesse breaks up tomorrow for half term and I need to get out of this house as much as I can so I don't go insane. I'm meeting my friends through the holidays and my sister and mum so I should be ok. 

I've just made a butter chicken curry for tea with rice and garlic bread and I must say it was lovely.

Today has been a better day.

I dreamt last night that I started drinking alcohol again, how weird. I do miss drinking some times but I know it would kill me so I have to stay sober for my kids.

I still can't believe that I'm over 3 years sober. Where have them 3 years gone?

Life is just passing me by.

I'm going get a bath now and get into my pj's. It's nearly bed time and I love bed time. One more get up for the school run then a week of lie ins. I can't wait.

Anyway, have a blessed evening.