January 29th Wednesday.

Right up until the last minute I thought about cancelling my driving lesson, but I didn't. I actually did it. My first 2 hour driving lesson. Driving is harder than I thought it would be. I stalled so many times but I kept at it. Getting the bite and putting your foot on the gas and changing the gears made my head fall off. I have to tell myself that it's my first lesson and it'll get easier. It will get easier won't it? Well let's hope so. I'm so proud of myself just lately, I'm really pushing myself out of my comfort zone. From going out at the weekend to driving myself home today, I really am trying my bloody best to get better mentally. I'm taking it day by day and I'm getting there, slowly.

You know, I'm not feeling to bad today, my mind has been occupied and it does me good. I really hope I stick to these driving lessons because I think it will do me the world of good. Its not cheap though, I know that much is true.

Still can't believe I went for my lesson, I was so close to cancelling it. I kept thinking what if I can't do it, but then I told myself, that's why you have lessons. You've got to start somewhere haven't you and today I made the first step to be able to drive. It's going take some lessons I know that. Today is a better day and for that I am thankful.