Every day is like groundhog day, I tell myself, its not just you Ann-louise, other people feel the way I do..
But that doesnt really help how I feel.
I know im not the only person to struggle with life.
Depression is so real and it doesnt get talked about enough.
Ive been depressed for as long as I can remember, but that day my father passed away, a switch got turned off inside of me.
A light went out.
My world went dark.
My whole world was turned upside down.
I didnt just lose my father that day, I lost my bestfriend in whole world.
I wonder if ill still be here this time next year?...
March 1st Sunday.
Natalie bombarded me with messages last night, pissed me right off. Telling me she loves me, so this morning ive told her its infatuation and she can't possibly love me and to leave me alone. Ive got enough shit going on in my head without her adding to it. Fuck it off! Life's so much easier being single. Just me and my boys. Going eat what I want today then start calorie counting tomorrow, try shift some weight. Got us all a McDonald's breakfast this morning haha. Don't know how im going stick to a diet, but im going try my best. Getting my hair done tomorrow, really can't be bothered, but my roots are so bad. Thank god my mums a hairdresser haha. I feel ok today, better than I have done the past few days/weeks. Im cooking a gammon joint for dinner. Still need wash my slow cooker, but that can wait till tomorrow. Trying stay positive today and be more thankful. Its hard when you're depressed and grieving. I pray im not like this forever because its horrible. Yo...
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