Started to ask myself why do I even bother writing this bog?...
I guess since my dad passed away, I have no one to talk to except write my feelings down on here.
Another lonely day trapped in my own thoughts.
I use to write in a journal but I dont even do that much anymore.
I'll sort of be glad when the schools are back open, I have friends that I see when I do the school run.
Through the holidays ive isolated myself.
Its a lonely world when you carry all this grief around daily, its draining.
March 1st Sunday.
Natalie bombarded me with messages last night, pissed me right off. Telling me she loves me, so this morning ive told her its infatuation and she can't possibly love me and to leave me alone. Ive got enough shit going on in my head without her adding to it. Fuck it off! Life's so much easier being single. Just me and my boys. Going eat what I want today then start calorie counting tomorrow, try shift some weight. Got us all a McDonald's breakfast this morning haha. Don't know how im going stick to a diet, but im going try my best. Getting my hair done tomorrow, really can't be bothered, but my roots are so bad. Thank god my mums a hairdresser haha. I feel ok today, better than I have done the past few days/weeks. Im cooking a gammon joint for dinner. Still need wash my slow cooker, but that can wait till tomorrow. Trying stay positive today and be more thankful. Its hard when you're depressed and grieving. I pray im not like this forever because its horrible. Yo...
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