Tired.

For the past few days I've not felt myself, constantly tired even though my iron tablets have been increased, I take multivitamins everyday but yet I'm lacking energy, I do the school run every morning then crawl back into bed.

Its been 5 weeks today since surgery and my stomach is in pain on the right hand side, it has been a few days now. I've been doing too much so I think I may of pulled something, it feels like I've torn skin if that makes any sense.

I had a cry yesterday whilst sat on my own looking at a photo of dad that a filter makes the person sort of come alive, his eyes moved and his mouth smiled, I can't stop watching it. I smile and cry at the same time.

Time isn't a healer, its been 7 months and I'm just as heartbroken as I was the day of dads passing 💔 

I still feel deflated about having cancer, I'm not the person I was before, I can't even bend down or wear underwear without feeling pain. I feel so fed up and I've got zero motivation. I'm waiting for the doctor sort out blood tests to see why I feel so rubbish, probably because of surgery I don't know but I know the iron tablets aren't working.

Its 20.46pm and I'm tired, I wake up tired, nap through the day, tired cooking tea, just tired...