Cancer, Depression and Me.

Well what a year.. Hands down the worst year of my entire life. I'm seeing a psychiatrist on January 13th so fingers crossed I can get the help I need and start to enjoy life. I can't wait to wake up 1 day and feel happy to be alive.. here's hoping 🙏🏼  My life will never be the same again now my dad isn't here but I just hope 1 day I find some happiness from inside. I'm doing the Dryathalon for Cancer Research UK, so all of January Zero alcohol will touch my lips. I want to throw myself into fundraising in 2022, I want to raise as much as I can for Cancer Research. I'm doing it for dad & for the fact I'm still alive after having cancer and to be told mine could come back is always a worry,  so here's to raising as much life saving money as possible. 2022 I'm coming!💗 Happy New Year to you all & stay safe xoxox 

2 days ago was my dad's 57th birthday & a year since his funeral. What a year I've had, hands down the worst year of my 37 years of being alive. I've wanted to unalive myself so much but I reached out to professionals & finally im getting help 🙏🏼  I don't want to die but, I don't want to live like this. After dad dying & my own cancer, I didn't realise how bad my mental health had actually got. It took for me to completely withdraw from life for me to ask for help.. I went a good 3 weeks, without bathing, washing my hair, some days I didn't brush my teeth. The housework felt like it was too much to deal with, everything got too much & I just wanted to end it all but I didn't, the reason I didn't is my 4 boys.. If my mental health is this bad, how could I unalive myself & my boys end up feeling the way I am if they were to lose me!? I've now spoke to a psychiatrist & I have a face to face January 13th 2022. Surely the onl